Monday, December 7, 2009

Do I even really like making cakes?

I'm being a huge procrastinator today. My cute nephew is getting married this weekend & they're having 2 receptions, so I'm doing 1.25 cakes for them. I say 1.25 because the top 3 tiers are going to be dummies, and I'll just have to do a new bottom tier for each reception. I could have done the top three months ago. Did I? No, no I did not. Now I've got all of it to do this week as well as all the extraneous Christmas crap, working out, not ignoring my child or husband, feeding them, and fighting off the mental & physical exhaustion that growing a fetus requires. Anyway, it makes me wonder if I really even want to keep doing cakes, as they are a huge pain in the booty. Also the fact that I don't charge near enough to make it worth my while doesn't help much. An opportunity came up this weekend to be one of two authorized cake vendors at the Castle recption center here in Layton. Should I persue it? They want me to bring in a sample cd this week for them to show their clients. Yet another thing I should be doing instead of blogging. I'm sure I could start charging more, but then I'd be afraid I'd not live up to expectations. I still feel like I'm faking it, ten years later. I dunno. Plus we're having a new baby join us come spring, and I'm pretty much in survival mode for the first six months. I love the feeling of accomplishment once I'm done with a cake, how much I learn with each one... Also I never want to be "just" a mom, I want to have an identity, interests & talents outside of just popping babies out. Sheesh, I don't know.

- Posted from my iPhone


Melissa said...

Sounds like a tough decision. On one hand you want something for yourself, yet you don't know if cakes is it, and on the other hand you feel like it tears you from your 'just a mother' duties.
Tough one Celeste.
Good luck with whatever you decide.

kristin jovel said...

Hey Celeste... I must admit I am one of your blog stalkers. I don't have my own blog so I have to stalk everyone else's blog. Anyways... I think you have a pretty awesome opportunity in front of you with the potential for limitless work. If you can handle two kiddos and the work, I'd say go for it! Unless your anything like me... I love to do things until I HAVE to do them, or am committed to them in any way.

good luck! Kristin Banner Jovel

Kierstin said...

I think you're fantastic at it but you've got to follow your 'mommy gut' instincts. If you feel like you can't do it all right now, don't. Just don't. Do it here and there to keep the creative juices flowing and so that you still enjoy it, but I agree with Kirsten when she stopped doing photography to focus on her family life. You only have this teensy little bit of time with your little ones, and then it's all you time after that. You're amazing and talented and beautiful and I love you... lots and lots. xoxo